Jakarta is very hedonistic city. Good place for people who wants to feel an urban life. Oportunities are aplenty. You can meet people of different background in Jakarta. The best for me about Jakarta is that I train my patience, endurance, patience.
It's hard for me as Javanese boy, who used to be so slow, mommy boy to adapt to new harsh real life. To make matters worse, I am gay who just separated with my loved one. In my first three months I was so lonely and sad, I even couldn't hold my tear drop in public places such as Trans Jakarta or Train when I talk with my bf on the phone. I was not good also with new people at work. The first 3 weeks at work I always thought about quitting work and getting back to hometown. My trainer was so rude at work, I perform badly until I got warning of termination if I don't perform better.
Gay people are also so bad in Jakarta. When I started to look for a date...all ended up very pathetic. First time I met a sexy 40+ guy who works in film Industry. I thought that he can be someone as a lover, to become my bf, but it turned out that I had been only his tool for sexual fulfilment. I couldn't accept that kind of behavior. He just dumped me like he never needed me. My calls, sms had never been answered. I knew then sexual life of gay people in urban city like Jakarta.
I was so fragile, depressed and angry to myself. I struggled everyday alone. Like everything passes, my sorrow and loneliness passed step by step. I learnt about living in new city a lot now. I started having friends, most importantly gay friends. Their presence in my life is important. Also friends like all of you although we have neve meet, have been helpful in my life. I have been struggling until now for better life in Jakarta.
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